Alex Chilton
March 18th, 2010
I never felt the need to write about the passing of my heroes. I was 7 when John Lennon was shot and I remember being at the St. Anthony’s roller-skating party at that age mourning his loss. I couldn’t skate well and it wasn’t a very good night. I still have yet to see a Beatle in person, so I maintained a distance from them that ensures they will always be these men from outer space. But Alex Chilton, who we lost Wednesday night at age 59 was one of the most real people I had ever had the pleasure of seeing perform and only a few months ago had the pleasure of meeting.
I discovered Big Star later than most, at age 24, by which time I had lived a pretty eventful life but found myself in a transitional period that involved growing up for real. Sure there were a few stupid things left for me to do, but the reality of putting aside certain notions about the direction my life would take, along with New York City’s demand that you figure it out real quick, had me at a crossroads that only the best records can get you through.
I found a CD of Big Star’s “#1 Record” that came with a copy of “Radio City” attached. I was living alone in a crappy studio apartment at 56 Ludlow Street (there’s a photo of the Velvet Underground before Mo Tucker was in the band taken on the stoop of the apartment I was living in, right in front of the window my bed was under and the door I walked in and out of every day). Every morning I would be awakened by the Chinese Mafia vegetable distributors who unloaded produce from trucks and hosed excess vegetable debris from the sidewalk in front of the place, which became rat food in the evening. I had nothing but shitty temp jobs to look forward to.
But every morning for three months straight I had a ritual. I’d get up and push play on the CD player. The first chords of “Feel” would creep in, and by the time I got to the shower the song was in full swing. Then I’d hear “The Ballad of El Goodo”, and, as corny as it sounds, the chorus of “There Ain’t No One Going to Turn Me ‘Round” made me feel that as tough as things seemed, somehow I made the right choices. I didn’t know Alex Chilton
personally, but he was my motivational speaker every morning in one of the toughest times I can remember.
Things began to look up.
I met a September Girl who would become my wife. Got a really good job. Made some freinds. Started another band. And yes, Big Star deserves some credit for it.
Then I saw that Alex Chilton was playing the Bottom Line. I got a ticket with my friend Mark. We were excited. We had no idea.
Alex had a three piece combo and was playing his own style of Jazz guitar. He played the “Oogum Boogum” song by Brenton Wood. He played Dave Bartholomew’s “Lipstick Traces”. He played Michael Jackson’s “Rock With You”, explaining beforehand what a great song it is and referencing the man who wrote it. Then yea, he did some Big Star stuff too. By then it didn’t matter. I witnessed a man who had aged gracefully and didn’t really give a crap what anyone thought about it because after all it was entertaining and he played guitar so gracefully and endearingly reached for those high notes he sang with such determination that I thought to myself “That’s what I want to be when I grow up”. I was 27.
Cut to a few years later and the Twin Towers were destroyed. Me and my fellow New Yorkers were living in shock with military vehicles at the corners of our streets. We had to show our I.D.s to get to the corner to buy a newspaper. And jet fighters buzzed overhead every 5 minutes. Alex Chilton had a show less than a month later. I went to it, a bundle of raw nerve.
The club he was playing had decided it would be cute to hang an enormous American Flag behind the stage. You have to understand that at the time we as New Yorkers who were breating in the smoldering pire, were not looking for revenge, or more hatred, or anything but some semblance of something that seemed more real than the surreal reality we were living in at the time. The anti-smoking laws had just been established in some places (bad timing) and this place Alex was playing was one of them. Tension was high. People who lit up (like my friend, the late, great, Bill Peitsch) were hassled by huge musclemen. It was a bright, sit down establishment. Alex lasted about two songs till he stopped in the middle of one and said “Wait, I just don’t feel right about this”… then proceeded to remove the giant backdrop flag, in a very careful, normal way, with the help of his bass player and a few members of the audience (including Bill). Awkward for sure. But it was just the kind of gesture of freedom that we all needed at the time and I’ll never forget him for it. The show went on.
I moved to New Orleans five years later and Alex was playing a block party benefit for his friend who was shot and in critical condition. At that party I met my now good friend Dan, who I would later find was good friends with Alex. Alex gave Dan and his wife Peg, who were his neighbors at time and very good friends, his car to evacuate during hurricane Katrina. Alex stayed behind and ended up shaking in his attic for a week. A testament to his selflessness.
Cut to last year round November. I’m in
my favorite guitar shop in New Orleans about to go to a lesson. I’m hunched over a guitar playing “Ragtime Nightingale” as best as I ever could. I hear a familiar beatnik-cool voice at the counter. I look behind me and it’s Alex Chilton. He’d been waiting for his guitar set-up to come out from the shop, and he’d been listening to me play. I immediately stood at attention and said “Alex Chilton, I’m a huge fan” I then proceeded to tell him the names of good friends we both share. He asked what I was doing in New Orleans and I told him about my son and my wife and my job. He never lost eye contact and moved toward me to take a small classical guitar off the wall. “I just love these short scale classical guitars” he said. It was time for my lesson. In desperation of having to give up the moment I gave him my phone number and told him if he ever wanted to hang out and play or just shoot the shit that it would be a pleasure. He took the number and smiled at me as he played a few notes on the guitar, still looking at me as if figuring out some puzzle.
Now I know I’ll never get that call.
Seeing Alex play the six or more times that I had always brought me joy. Whether with Big Star or his trio or a pick-up band, just his presence made me smile.
I am happy I was able to at least say hello. But knowing he is gone now truly makes me sad.
All I can say is thank you Alex for the songs and the smiles and the inspiration to age gracefully. I’d like to think that I was one of the ones in on that inside joke you always seemed to have a half smile about. You couldn’t hide it from the people who wanted to see it.
Rest In Peace.





